Hey guys, time to reveal my new blog link liao. hahahas.
I've shifted to HERE !!!! hahahas. it's a much easier add to rmb =) time to say goodbye to this blog. but i will visit "you" whenever i free de =x hahahas. Im really already starting to miss the time i had in year 2006.. and i really.. miss my zhu... oh no.. not mine anymore.. hahas. i just miss him and everyone that brought so much joys to me in year 2006... i love him and everyone so much that.. i dun even wanna think abt how's 2007 gonna be like without them for a period.. dun care. must meet out =D alright. it's really time to say goodbye.. drop by to my new blog bahs. will blog either this midnight or tmr ^^ tatas~!! all de best! LOVE AND MISSES!
[[ahvone]] - [[2006 the best year in my 16yrs of life. really.. sweet 16 =)]]
Sunday, December 31, 2006
Saturday, December 30, 2006
my love to you
Only you and me -
I've decided to write msg to "zhu" as my last entry to round up my this blog. Tt's because this yr the most blessed n happy thing tt happened to me was being able to find "zhu" Our little story. An incomplete fairy tale, a tale just like my blog's song... =]
We started off as just being normal fren. ppl ard us teased us tt we r a couple. Initially it wasnt true n tt we feel tt it wasnt even possible. maybe because "ri jiu sheng qing" somehow feelings developed. I tried to run away yet it was in vain. I tried not to believe tt i've feelings for u but the reality isnt so. "shldnt hv started in the first place" yet we did. Sometimes i really think back. Our break-up izzit my fault. Even thou de reason we break up was "it" but.. hmm if i didnt say to u "shldnt hv started in the first place" maybe u wun even wanna break-up with me. We may still con'd... But somehow or rather. wat suppose to end will come to an end. Today dun break-up, other day will also. affinity comes to an end means end. I guess we wud have break-up even back then i hv not said those words. But it was a pity, our days tgt was rather short. hahas~ but im contented already.
Yr 2006, knowing n having u was smth magical. I've nv expected both of us to get tgt. Somehow i hv de feeling tt 2006 gonna be wonderful, but it will just come to an end. Who knows im really tt accurate. Neverthless, im still really glad tt u intruded into my life when i didnt expect. If it wasnt because of u, im still just having nth. Least i once had u. Those days we had, those words u said, will 4ever be kept behind the doors of mine. there are too many things tt i wanna say to u but i cant say here, but im sure u hear me already =)
Thou we can nv be lovers again but both of us believe tt we both in the first place shld only had been best friends, just that like u said... we accidentally yong bao zai yi qi... n i know wat we used to promise will not be broken. it's just tt we needa make it come true in a diff way bahs. hahahas. nevertheless. promises between us are not meant to be broken =) n i will always love u... this love wud be turned into friendship de love..^^
Duno when u will pass by my blog to read again but i believe u will come sooner or later. Now that everyth has come to and end. Just like the song lyrics, I wish the both of us kuai le =D n of cos i wish u xing fu too! as long u xing fu, no matter wat we had gone thru is worth it. n tt we gona be best frens till old =DDDD hahahas. wo men shi shuai bu liao each other liao de lahs xD kekekes. Really wanna thx u for everyth tt u have given me. I really feel very xing fu le. Plus having our buddies tgt, im so blessed =DDD Wo men hui yong yuan zhai each other de sheng bian de ^^ MISSES & LOVES! take gd care of urself.. im always there for u =) Our frienship gonna last de! =D n of cos with our buddies xD i will be ok, trust me.. ciao~!!! let's ying jie 2007 =D tatas~
[[ahvone]] - [[Yin wei you ni he da jia, suo yi wo xing fu!]]
I've decided to write msg to "zhu" as my last entry to round up my this blog. Tt's because this yr the most blessed n happy thing tt happened to me was being able to find "zhu" Our little story. An incomplete fairy tale, a tale just like my blog's song... =]
We started off as just being normal fren. ppl ard us teased us tt we r a couple. Initially it wasnt true n tt we feel tt it wasnt even possible. maybe because "ri jiu sheng qing" somehow feelings developed. I tried to run away yet it was in vain. I tried not to believe tt i've feelings for u but the reality isnt so. "shldnt hv started in the first place" yet we did. Sometimes i really think back. Our break-up izzit my fault. Even thou de reason we break up was "it" but.. hmm if i didnt say to u "shldnt hv started in the first place" maybe u wun even wanna break-up with me. We may still con'd... But somehow or rather. wat suppose to end will come to an end. Today dun break-up, other day will also. affinity comes to an end means end. I guess we wud have break-up even back then i hv not said those words. But it was a pity, our days tgt was rather short. hahas~ but im contented already.
Yr 2006, knowing n having u was smth magical. I've nv expected both of us to get tgt. Somehow i hv de feeling tt 2006 gonna be wonderful, but it will just come to an end. Who knows im really tt accurate. Neverthless, im still really glad tt u intruded into my life when i didnt expect. If it wasnt because of u, im still just having nth. Least i once had u. Those days we had, those words u said, will 4ever be kept behind the doors of mine. there are too many things tt i wanna say to u but i cant say here, but im sure u hear me already =)
Thou we can nv be lovers again but both of us believe tt we both in the first place shld only had been best friends, just that like u said... we accidentally yong bao zai yi qi... n i know wat we used to promise will not be broken. it's just tt we needa make it come true in a diff way bahs. hahahas. nevertheless. promises between us are not meant to be broken =) n i will always love u... this love wud be turned into friendship de love..^^
Duno when u will pass by my blog to read again but i believe u will come sooner or later. Now that everyth has come to and end. Just like the song lyrics, I wish the both of us kuai le =D n of cos i wish u xing fu too! as long u xing fu, no matter wat we had gone thru is worth it. n tt we gona be best frens till old =DDDD hahahas. wo men shi shuai bu liao each other liao de lahs xD kekekes. Really wanna thx u for everyth tt u have given me. I really feel very xing fu le. Plus having our buddies tgt, im so blessed =DDD Wo men hui yong yuan zhai each other de sheng bian de ^^ MISSES & LOVES! take gd care of urself.. im always there for u =) Our frienship gonna last de! =D n of cos with our buddies xD i will be ok, trust me.. ciao~!!! let's ying jie 2007 =D tatas~
[[ahvone]] - [[Yin wei you ni he da jia, suo yi wo xing fu!]]
Chalet pics
ALMOST FORGOT ~!! HAHAHAS~!! PHOTOS TIME xD enjoy bahs. but sorry arhs, not really alot, because others were too random. It's a pity that i only realise that the photos taken were really few. If there's gonna be another chance i sure will take loads of pics de. hehes.
The Drenched ppl. After helping my dad with the shelter for BBQ. But that wun stop them from playing cards =x hahas
My ke ai de mei mei~!! Miaoru
The kawaii catty that's always at our pit area the whole day. I still saw it the next mrn!
The handsome andrewly =x N ke ai miaoru mei & siao me xD
Andrewly kana pinched by me =x
Friends since primary sch =D
WOOOOTZ~ nice right~!! i was BBQ-ing with them =D
THE SI BEI GUAI LAN CHEN CHUAN =x
MY BABES ~!! Nicola mei + miaoru mei + me
The ugly me xD taken by Choy =.=
The crazzies? hahahas i seriously dunno wat they doing
After my parents left. Lols~ she cute rite =D
The funny looking tiles that i discovered. Hmmm maybe there was a bomb in there =O or maybe treasures =DDDD kekekes
IRIS~!!! Garden terrace I. hahahs
The receptionist =x
-THE END- *i miss 26-27/12/2006*End of 2006
End of Chalet; Over & done with -
Genre - Chinese Love song
Artist - Huang Ping Guan
Title - Peng you bian qing ren zhai bian peng you
Hello~!! im back to bloggin but this entry gonna be d 2nd last for this blog link. After this entry gonna post an entry to "him" to round up this blog. But i wun delete this blog xD Will tell u guys my new link when evth is done =D
26/12/2006 Beng Hwee's chalet was a great success n tt now it is over n done with, all tt's left are memories n nostalgia. haha~ Chalet was really fun n memoriable nahs~! Glad tt my parents went down to help, if nt i guess we wun hv as much fun as we had. Thx daddy n mummy~ Love u!!!
We separated into two grps, Miao beng and dan one grp, me choy n tth one grp. Lols~ my grp incharge fd. Then when we reach aloha loyang we pengz~ cos there can cook ><" all d cookin utensils provided. DUH~!!! if we know beforehand, my mum can cook fried rice there instead, it wud be HOT -.-" hahahas. but nevertheless, d fd are still very delicious!
Genre - Chinese Love song
Artist - Huang Ping Guan
Title - Peng you bian qing ren zhai bian peng you
Hello~!! im back to bloggin but this entry gonna be d 2nd last for this blog link. After this entry gonna post an entry to "him" to round up this blog. But i wun delete this blog xD Will tell u guys my new link when evth is done =D
26/12/2006 Beng Hwee's chalet was a great success n tt now it is over n done with, all tt's left are memories n nostalgia. haha~ Chalet was really fun n memoriable nahs~! Glad tt my parents went down to help, if nt i guess we wun hv as much fun as we had. Thx daddy n mummy~ Love u!!!
We separated into two grps, Miao beng and dan one grp, me choy n tth one grp. Lols~ my grp incharge fd. Then when we reach aloha loyang we pengz~ cos there can cook ><" all d cookin utensils provided. DUH~!!! if we know beforehand, my mum can cook fried rice there instead, it wud be HOT -.-" hahahas. but nevertheless, d fd are still very delicious!
Then after settling d BBQ pit (it was raining tt day), all of them were wet, they went to play cards -.- Lols~ then abt 30mins later andrew, cheng chuan n moses arrived. Followed by Ivan n a surprise guest, NICOLA~!!! lols~ cos she told me she cant come ><" lols~ but it was really pleasing. Junwei didnt come -.-" Den my 2 buddies came d lastest. Hahahas. We started BBQ without waiting others =x HUNGRY. Sm of them really weird, they rather play than eat =.=" 1st. hahahas~ I didnt ate much, cos wasnt well, but i enjoyed BBQ-ing xD
D most funny thing was when d 6 of us BBQ de experiences norhs. Neither of us hv very gd experiences, so d fire kept on almost went out. Hahas. Den duno who cooked d fd till "chao-ta"(dad say like biscuit) sm not cooked xD hahas. Mummy said miao ate d most. Lols~ but rather true nahs. But least she happy =D others dun wan cook themselves their prob. haha. So miao after eating went to d rm to rest w nicola n ivan. hahas. Then my turn to play xD i went to d pit to BBQ. then suddenly d rain very heavy ><" the water came right down at me. So d guys started to help me lo. Haiyo, sotong me. I was sick, so they dun let me play too much -.-" hehes. 1 very funny thing is tt my mum bought de "mai ya tang". Normally we bought is watery de. Who knows Tt day turned out to be hard de!! LOLS~! I was rather inpatient so sm of my fd no hv honey d taste xD The best fd was mum's fried rice, chicken wings, Tth's mum marinade de stingray n otah man~!! but these two were spicy, then sm1 dun let me eat too much, but i still eat xD kekeks.
Soon ppl slowly start to go hm n d leftover ones were playing cards n mahjong xD I duno how to play so i just packed up a lil w dad n see them play. Mum played mahjong w Choy, beng n daniel. Me miao n tth noe nth abt it, so we simply just looked at them play n took turns to go bath. haha. dad even taught daniel mahjong skills =x kekes. Dad n mum was really funny tt nite. I guessed ev1 enjoyed alot. They played till 2am then my parents left =) thx daddy mummy~!!
Then we started to pack up n d rest went to bath. After tt we got into a rm to relax ourselves. Listen to music, talked crap n then some of them played chess n mastermind. Then choy brought wine =D so we all drank. Not really alot nahs, just abit nia. I 1st time drink wine, but not alcoholic drinks nahs. Miao 1st time drink then she chiong abit. XIA SI WO. hahas. then in d end she got a bit high, but she says she actually always lidat de. Lols~ But indeed she was high nahs, tt's wat beng choy n me see. haha. She was really happy =) im glad. Then choy finally cant tahan see her chiong wine then he confiscated it. lols. i was resting on bed, relaxing, then 4get to take pics =.=" so wasted nehs~ hahas. so we fooled ard until 4.30am then went to bed. Miao was d only 1 tt slept well. The rest didnt really slept well n i didnt slp too xD
Hence, d next mrn i super shag. lols~ but still i was very happy nahs. d v stupid thing is tt i still can go watch movie thou like half dead xD hahas. watched "Death note; the last name" super nice. Must watch hor! hahas. supposely miao can go watch w us de, but went she reached hm her mum forbid her to go out again =( awww. Then beng got dinner at night. so tt's d end of chalet trip =) im sure we will all gather tgt again. Dad promised me tt he will organise a chalet some other time n invite them all over to play =D Hope when tt time comes, ev1 will be present, then all of us will reunite again =DDD
This yr time really flies, n tt it was 1 of d best yr i've ever got. Those moments w my besties, buddies n all. It's a magical yr. A year tt's gonna be kept in my heart 4ever. Now tt this yr is coming to an end i hope next yr will just be a more fulfiling yr. It wun ask for a better yr, cos no yr will be a better yr w/o "him" n my buddies. I only ask for fufiling =) My start of a new yr is already gonna be a boring one. Cos i nv go out celebrate. just gonna stay at hm ... so hope those gg out enjoy de must enjoy to de max. Alright, gonna post a last post to "him"n bye bye to this blog... arrivederci... =)
[[ahvone]]===[i thank u guys for everyth this year. LOVE]
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
NIGHTSTALKER
Outings Outings N Outings =D -
Genre - English
Artist - Augustana
Title - Boston
DOMO~!! hahas i know super long nv blog so here im norhs xD hehes. 1st thing 1st, i've updated my blog. Main pic nv change thou =x Bt those small lil pics at d sides mostly changed, proflies changed N links organised too. Hope viewers will like them ^^
Alot had run thru my mind lately, things tt had happened since june. Those wonderful times which i nv expect to hv yet i've got it. Yet Happy moments r owaz short. Now all i can do is reminicse upon d past but still hv to look ahead of my life =) Time waits for no one n is always cruel so i needa b strong =) I really miss him, even thou we r within reach. "The worst way to miss sm1 is when he/she is jux right beside u yet u cant love" Now i understand this pain. Hahs. Unpredictable.
For some reasons i get to know wat's my positive assert/capability = help ppl make-up N dress up. LOLS~!!! Hahas. Maybe 1 day this gonna b my main career N being an animator as part time. Who knows =P But for all i know i wanna achieve 3 BIG DREAMS. Being an animator, make-up artist N ladyboss =) Sounds rather ambitious but tt's my love ^^
Happenings since last wed =x hahahas Slight chances but still as fun as expected to b:
06/12[Wed] - Drama marathon w miao, N she had dinner over at my hse. hahas. tt day i was pretty sian so didnt manage to company her much, sry nehs >< hahas but glad she still had fun =)
07/12[Thurs] - Went to bugis only w mum cos sis cant make it, she was working. Shopped from 12plus to 9plus. Hahas, bought kinda lots of things. Clothings, accessories, shoe. 4got to buy make-up stuff =.= hahas. But it was really fun
08/12[Fri] - Went to saloon n got my hair done. Was pretty scary lahs. Scary cos of d long duration i stayed there. 1st time stay so long in a saloon. 2pm - 10pm ><>< hais. BO BIAN~ but im pretty happy w my hairstyle result. Thou Mr Choy say like ah lian -.-" Red NOT = ah lian mahs ~ =P Blehs. Opps~ lidat suan bu suan bad mouth har? hahahahas~ Red my fav color mahs =D Wanna highlight purple but cant. Cos nid bleach to make de purple appear, but my hair very dry le, will damage my hair farther. hahahas. so now doin treatment. hahahahas~ Had a super nice chat w d hairstylist =P *secret*
09/12[Sat] - No drama marathon, rot at hm, slack N watched anime/comic dao shuang shuang~ =D
10/12[Sun] - Went bedok w mum, only manage to buy a t-shirt. Cos nth much, couldn't find nice heels =( hahahas. But was rather nice lahs, just jalan jalan lor =D
11/12[Mon] - No drama marathon, instead went to change new hp =DDD was super happy tt day. hahahas. finally got wat i wanted. Appreciate! hahas. Mum N dad changed phone too. Helped them N myself to upload things to d phone till 2am lidat. Den i only manage slp at 4am. hahahas. worth it, cos ev1 was super happy ^^
12/12[Tues] - Suppose to go dance but didnt, cos of d previous nite. In d end rot at hm watch anime, dramas N comics =D
13/12[Wed] - When out w Choy, Miao N Daniel to find chalet location. Met up w TTH at nite for dinner cum supper. Cos Choy miao n me went to watch THE HOLIDAY. Rather nice movie lahs, thou kinda lovey dovey d. hahas. But v touching =) Manage to find d location of chalet, but d prob is tt eh... WHAT IF IT RAINS?~!~!~!~!!!!!! Rainin season lehs. oh well, sure gotta hv a way out, now still managing =) luckily dad N mum helped me pretty much. THX MUMMY N DADDY~ Oh ya, saw Wei-Qi too, rather pleasing =)
14/12[Thurs] - No drama marathon N din went dance also =x cos slp at abt 3plus de previous nite =x hahas~ Cant rmb wat i did, most prolly rotting la, hor? kekekes
15/12[Fri] - Went to d magic show, "MAGIC OF LOVE" at expo, organised by FBCC[church thing], w Choy, Nicola n Ivan. The Magic show was really fabulous N touching. I really enjoyed. Thx guys. Hmm went to eat at sembang bedok. Hahas. alot funny things happened after tt. Was v happy =)) N i came to realise...Shldnt hv started it in d 1st place...Yet we started...Hence, I accept d result of us td, i will do my best to b strong, yet i still luv u in my heart. A diff kind of luv... =) The kind of HATE-LOVE... I dunno if any1 understand this meaning LOLS~ as it be =P AIYA~ a pity nvr take pics with them that nite lahs. haiyo ><
16/12[Sat] - Drama marathon w miao =DDD FINALLY >< omoz overslept tt day =P hahas But a pity she couldnt stay long. We took a few pics tt day. We promised to take more pics this wed =D hahahas. smhow i love miao so much =D hahahas Loveable =) i love to be w her in outings or wat d. just fun norhs =D Love u mei mei~
17/12[Sun] - Planned Chalet things for d whole day[SEH~]. Plannings are all OK. The ONLY PROB is WHAT IF IT RAINS ><><" dong~ Boohoohoo~ Sunday so many shows, but missed d shows >< Aiya nvm sua~ WORTH it d. hahas~ In d end also 3plus then slp -.-
I duno y i recently like cant slp early lidat. Yarh, smth on my mind which i choose to close it at d back of my door =x hahas. BO BIAN im at night more active d. hehes td dad nv work so accompany us~ so happy! n dad help me w bbq stuff also. kekes. Tmr meetin up wen qing ah gong n huimin for awhile. Den go out on wed. I like so busy =x those working den call busy =x hahahhas. Wanted to draw but din manage to, maybe after blogging i will =x Sounds crazy? Sorry lahs, im nvr normal =x hehehes. drawing is my life =D okok, no matter wat, live everyday happily. Tomodachi owaz d best =) Gdnite all, paiseh arhs. entry so long. Raining season, all better tuck under ur blankets to keep warm, dun catch a cold ^^
[[ahvone]] = [[It's Just diff, i accept the diff in us..after chalet, new frenship, end of us]]
Genre - English
Artist - Augustana
Title - Boston
DOMO~!! hahas i know super long nv blog so here im norhs xD hehes. 1st thing 1st, i've updated my blog. Main pic nv change thou =x Bt those small lil pics at d sides mostly changed, proflies changed N links organised too. Hope viewers will like them ^^
Alot had run thru my mind lately, things tt had happened since june. Those wonderful times which i nv expect to hv yet i've got it. Yet Happy moments r owaz short. Now all i can do is reminicse upon d past but still hv to look ahead of my life =) Time waits for no one n is always cruel so i needa b strong =) I really miss him, even thou we r within reach. "The worst way to miss sm1 is when he/she is jux right beside u yet u cant love" Now i understand this pain. Hahs. Unpredictable.
For some reasons i get to know wat's my positive assert/capability = help ppl make-up N dress up. LOLS~!!! Hahas. Maybe 1 day this gonna b my main career N being an animator as part time. Who knows =P But for all i know i wanna achieve 3 BIG DREAMS. Being an animator, make-up artist N ladyboss =) Sounds rather ambitious but tt's my love ^^
Happenings since last wed =x hahahas Slight chances but still as fun as expected to b:
06/12[Wed] - Drama marathon w miao, N she had dinner over at my hse. hahas. tt day i was pretty sian so didnt manage to company her much, sry nehs >< hahas but glad she still had fun =)
07/12[Thurs] - Went to bugis only w mum cos sis cant make it, she was working. Shopped from 12plus to 9plus. Hahas, bought kinda lots of things. Clothings, accessories, shoe. 4got to buy make-up stuff =.= hahas. But it was really fun
08/12[Fri] - Went to saloon n got my hair done. Was pretty scary lahs. Scary cos of d long duration i stayed there. 1st time stay so long in a saloon. 2pm - 10pm ><>< hais. BO BIAN~ but im pretty happy w my hairstyle result. Thou Mr Choy say like ah lian -.-" Red NOT = ah lian mahs ~ =P Blehs. Opps~ lidat suan bu suan bad mouth har? hahahahas~ Red my fav color mahs =D Wanna highlight purple but cant. Cos nid bleach to make de purple appear, but my hair very dry le, will damage my hair farther. hahahas. so now doin treatment. hahahahas~ Had a super nice chat w d hairstylist =P *secret*
09/12[Sat] - No drama marathon, rot at hm, slack N watched anime/comic dao shuang shuang~ =D
10/12[Sun] - Went bedok w mum, only manage to buy a t-shirt. Cos nth much, couldn't find nice heels =( hahahas. But was rather nice lahs, just jalan jalan lor =D
11/12[Mon] - No drama marathon, instead went to change new hp =DDD was super happy tt day. hahahas. finally got wat i wanted. Appreciate! hahas. Mum N dad changed phone too. Helped them N myself to upload things to d phone till 2am lidat. Den i only manage slp at 4am. hahahas. worth it, cos ev1 was super happy ^^
12/12[Tues] - Suppose to go dance but didnt, cos of d previous nite. In d end rot at hm watch anime, dramas N comics =D
13/12[Wed] - When out w Choy, Miao N Daniel to find chalet location. Met up w TTH at nite for dinner cum supper. Cos Choy miao n me went to watch THE HOLIDAY. Rather nice movie lahs, thou kinda lovey dovey d. hahas. But v touching =) Manage to find d location of chalet, but d prob is tt eh... WHAT IF IT RAINS?~!~!~!~!!!!!! Rainin season lehs. oh well, sure gotta hv a way out, now still managing =) luckily dad N mum helped me pretty much. THX MUMMY N DADDY~ Oh ya, saw Wei-Qi too, rather pleasing =)
14/12[Thurs] - No drama marathon N din went dance also =x cos slp at abt 3plus de previous nite =x hahas~ Cant rmb wat i did, most prolly rotting la, hor? kekekes
15/12[Fri] - Went to d magic show, "MAGIC OF LOVE" at expo, organised by FBCC[church thing], w Choy, Nicola n Ivan. The Magic show was really fabulous N touching. I really enjoyed. Thx guys. Hmm went to eat at sembang bedok. Hahas. alot funny things happened after tt. Was v happy =)) N i came to realise...Shldnt hv started it in d 1st place...Yet we started...Hence, I accept d result of us td, i will do my best to b strong, yet i still luv u in my heart. A diff kind of luv... =) The kind of HATE-LOVE... I dunno if any1 understand this meaning LOLS~ as it be =P AIYA~ a pity nvr take pics with them that nite lahs. haiyo ><
16/12[Sat] - Drama marathon w miao =DDD FINALLY >< omoz overslept tt day =P hahas But a pity she couldnt stay long. We took a few pics tt day. We promised to take more pics this wed =D hahahas. smhow i love miao so much =D hahahas Loveable =) i love to be w her in outings or wat d. just fun norhs =D Love u mei mei~
17/12[Sun] - Planned Chalet things for d whole day[SEH~]. Plannings are all OK. The ONLY PROB is WHAT IF IT RAINS ><><" dong~ Boohoohoo~ Sunday so many shows, but missed d shows >< Aiya nvm sua~ WORTH it d. hahas~ In d end also 3plus then slp -.-
I duno y i recently like cant slp early lidat. Yarh, smth on my mind which i choose to close it at d back of my door =x hahas. BO BIAN im at night more active d. hehes td dad nv work so accompany us~ so happy! n dad help me w bbq stuff also. kekes. Tmr meetin up wen qing ah gong n huimin for awhile. Den go out on wed. I like so busy =x those working den call busy =x hahahhas. Wanted to draw but din manage to, maybe after blogging i will =x Sounds crazy? Sorry lahs, im nvr normal =x hehehes. drawing is my life =D okok, no matter wat, live everyday happily. Tomodachi owaz d best =) Gdnite all, paiseh arhs. entry so long. Raining season, all better tuck under ur blankets to keep warm, dun catch a cold ^^
[[ahvone]] = [[It's Just diff, i accept the diff in us..after chalet, new frenship, end of us]]
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
ureshii~
Feeling ultra times better -
Hey~ I'm back to blog again =D hahas. n i wanna say tt im really feeling much better now, sry for de entry this morning or rather ytd midnight. hahahas. Really wanted to delete tt entry, but i didnt cos i think tt's really how i feel so im just gonna leave it there ^^ since now im ok, everyth jiu ok le norhs. But do still tag or wateva de. kekekes x))
Went back to Tpss for dancing. Kekes, really had fun, esp with Miaoru, Nicola n some of de juniors. Oh~! with Syaiful too, my super dance lamer friend. hahahahs~ I think today i laugh out alot cos of his stupid actions man. kekekes. afterall must thank him too xD n of cos my ke ai de nicola mei lor. Noe i made her kinda worry man >< Lols~ we are late queens =x kekekes~ Im really so happy today, cos i danced again, but sad nahs, not participating anymore. Nostalgia over de past when we all were dancing, esp with Bai lao shi. I miss him so much. Even going for lessons will also recall his everyth... I wonder how is he le =) Sure gotta be fine. Bai lao shi wo hao xiang ni, da jia dou hao xiang nian ni.. Dancing is really great, it's nv easy, i decided to dance for as long as i can. Even go poly also wanna dance. I noe gotta be tiring, but i still wanna dance. Hopefully i can get in norhs =D
After dancing, Miaoru came to my house to watch "Ai shang qian jin mei mei" LOls~ a comedy =D hehhehs, she coming over again tmr. WHEEE~!!! Fun lor, we got so many dramas wanna watch man. Or rather i've so many anime and dramas to watch, n i cant wait to draw draw draw =D hehehs~ i very hyper =x For the rest of this wk n next wk i've so many plannings =D I dun wan happy also cant liao. hahahahas~ YAY~ i very happy now. Lols~ i sot le =x
Tmr - Drama watching marathon with miaoru
Thursday - Outing to bugis with Mummy and jiejie maybe will tag along
Friday - Going Saloon with Mummy to rebond & cut hair [scare scare. dunno wan cut wat hairstyle]
Saturday-monday - Maybe drama watching marathon again
Tuesday - Dance
Wenesday - Outing to find chalet location
Thurday - Dance
Friday - Special day =) No lahs. hahaas. meeting Nicola and friends =)
OH YA~!! Last but not least, thx Shi lao shi for borrowing us de portable radio for chalet. hehes~ yay yay yay~!! lalala~!! okay~ i going to rest liao. take care peeps. tatas~
[[ahvone]] = [[Happy, ureshii]]
Hey~ I'm back to blog again =D hahas. n i wanna say tt im really feeling much better now, sry for de entry this morning or rather ytd midnight. hahahas. Really wanted to delete tt entry, but i didnt cos i think tt's really how i feel so im just gonna leave it there ^^ since now im ok, everyth jiu ok le norhs. But do still tag or wateva de. kekekes x))
Went back to Tpss for dancing. Kekes, really had fun, esp with Miaoru, Nicola n some of de juniors. Oh~! with Syaiful too, my super dance lamer friend. hahahahs~ I think today i laugh out alot cos of his stupid actions man. kekekes. afterall must thank him too xD n of cos my ke ai de nicola mei lor. Noe i made her kinda worry man >< Lols~ we are late queens =x kekekes~ Im really so happy today, cos i danced again, but sad nahs, not participating anymore. Nostalgia over de past when we all were dancing, esp with Bai lao shi. I miss him so much. Even going for lessons will also recall his everyth... I wonder how is he le =) Sure gotta be fine. Bai lao shi wo hao xiang ni, da jia dou hao xiang nian ni.. Dancing is really great, it's nv easy, i decided to dance for as long as i can. Even go poly also wanna dance. I noe gotta be tiring, but i still wanna dance. Hopefully i can get in norhs =D
After dancing, Miaoru came to my house to watch "Ai shang qian jin mei mei" LOls~ a comedy =D hehhehs, she coming over again tmr. WHEEE~!!! Fun lor, we got so many dramas wanna watch man. Or rather i've so many anime and dramas to watch, n i cant wait to draw draw draw =D hehehs~ i very hyper =x For the rest of this wk n next wk i've so many plannings =D I dun wan happy also cant liao. hahahahas~ YAY~ i very happy now. Lols~ i sot le =x
Tmr - Drama watching marathon with miaoru
Thursday - Outing to bugis with Mummy and jiejie maybe will tag along
Friday - Going Saloon with Mummy to rebond & cut hair [scare scare. dunno wan cut wat hairstyle]
Saturday-monday - Maybe drama watching marathon again
Tuesday - Dance
Wenesday - Outing to find chalet location
Thurday - Dance
Friday - Special day =) No lahs. hahaas. meeting Nicola and friends =)
OH YA~!! Last but not least, thx Shi lao shi for borrowing us de portable radio for chalet. hehes~ yay yay yay~!! lalala~!! okay~ i going to rest liao. take care peeps. tatas~
[[ahvone]] = [[Happy, ureshii]]
True friends?
I need someone to be there to make me smile -
Pouring out my unhappiness cos i can't slp. I feel like i'm losing my true happy smiles.. I'm still rather lost, i feel like i'm sm1 ppl love to take in possesion n discard whenever they like. As thou im like air..follows de wind wherever it takes. I dun wanna tell my parents wat's going on, cos i noe they hv their own worries.. Thus, i hope to settle myself. I know they are aware im sad but as usual, they wun probe when i choose to keep quiet. i know im making them sad too. Hence, i really wanna gain back my true smiles.....
I realised i cried for no reasons, tears just flow. I duno y, but i guess my heart is really wounded, thou i feel as thou im ok. Maybe.. i really shld learn to be fully independent. I'm sm1 who will be lost if i lose dependence on de sm1. n tt's what happening to me now. Ppl enjoy holidays, i like suffer holidays.. Wth ><"
I really wana live each day happily. Just hope sm1 will slap / shake me hard and ask me to be truly strong and stop floating like a lost soul. My crazy laughters became bitter laughter. My smiles became hidden cries. Is it really so hard to stand up n be strong again? Is it tt im not trying hard enuff? I need a friend, sm1 to hold me up and support me strong, even thou im afraid to be dependent. But i noe i can only regain myself when i noe there's sm1 who supports me in things i do.
Im such a failure in both bgr n friendship. Nv hv a proper bgr.. n nv is consider a best choice as friend.. Bgr at my age i sorta able to slowly learn n understand. But in friendship I'm like also a unsuccessful friend.. I dun make my friends smiles more.. instead worry more.. Havin me as a fren is like more of agony than happiness. Maybe im really sm1 cant be trusted.. Maybe.. im just more suitable to be kept shut at home.. Maybe.. I'm not worth for anyone at all.. Maybe im born to be just for my family... But im blessed =) cos i got a 2nd chance to live =D
Maybe i'm nv a gd friend at all.. I only hurt my friends.. Leave me b4 u gonna regret... Cos i cant garantee im able to bring happiness to my friends.. Because.. im a bad friend.. i dun think anyone wanna stay long with me.. because my helpings will only end up as a hindrance to my friends..
This kind of reluctance... who really understands... I cried both in n out... Who will wanna be born to be unable to bring happiness to de ppl ard them, esp their friends... who understands mine feelings.. who understands wat it feels.. to be feel like a jinx... who understands how much i wanna cherish every friendship, tried to last every friendship but end up betrayed or misunderstood... who understands this kind of pain... I dun wan pity.. i dun wan apologies... i want friends who trust.. dun nid 24/7... but least just give basic trust. I give my trust despite countless of smiliar situation. Am i stupid to trust others fully over and over again? My dad say im.. But i just feel that my trust will bring others happiness, but why doesnt others appreciate? Instead make use of it? =
Words are powerful.. but y always most powerful at rumours or influence.. If really treat me as friend, give me basic trust.. If i noe u dun trust me as much, how i give u my trust even if i wanted? Believe my words n not doubt them n then end up half believe half dun believe... cos.. im in pain.. im really am... I can forgive, but i cant forget. Words are powerful that it hurts de soul.
I wonder is God giving me tons of tests to pass.. Nay~ i not in depression =.=" but i just really needa let out my so-called grief...wahahhahas xD hoping sm1 will understand my feelings. No matter what, life carries on, n i will acomplish wat i wan, there's too many things for me to learn.. i guess, i can only take a step at a time now. cos i no longer noe are my frens really still supporting me.. Let alone reading my blog, my tots... if u are, tag me, msg me, i will appreciate it. It may seems not significant to u, but least it is to me.. Cos i admit, im a lonely soul afterall. Hence, i need warmth.. =) Nites...
I will be positive and truly happy, not fake it, at my best =DDD
[[ahvone]] = [[Friends are great,I love them like my kin]]
Pouring out my unhappiness cos i can't slp. I feel like i'm losing my true happy smiles.. I'm still rather lost, i feel like i'm sm1 ppl love to take in possesion n discard whenever they like. As thou im like air..follows de wind wherever it takes. I dun wanna tell my parents wat's going on, cos i noe they hv their own worries.. Thus, i hope to settle myself. I know they are aware im sad but as usual, they wun probe when i choose to keep quiet. i know im making them sad too. Hence, i really wanna gain back my true smiles.....
I realised i cried for no reasons, tears just flow. I duno y, but i guess my heart is really wounded, thou i feel as thou im ok. Maybe.. i really shld learn to be fully independent. I'm sm1 who will be lost if i lose dependence on de sm1. n tt's what happening to me now. Ppl enjoy holidays, i like suffer holidays.. Wth ><"
I really wana live each day happily. Just hope sm1 will slap / shake me hard and ask me to be truly strong and stop floating like a lost soul. My crazy laughters became bitter laughter. My smiles became hidden cries. Is it really so hard to stand up n be strong again? Is it tt im not trying hard enuff? I need a friend, sm1 to hold me up and support me strong, even thou im afraid to be dependent. But i noe i can only regain myself when i noe there's sm1 who supports me in things i do.
Im such a failure in both bgr n friendship. Nv hv a proper bgr.. n nv is consider a best choice as friend.. Bgr at my age i sorta able to slowly learn n understand. But in friendship I'm like also a unsuccessful friend.. I dun make my friends smiles more.. instead worry more.. Havin me as a fren is like more of agony than happiness. Maybe im really sm1 cant be trusted.. Maybe.. im just more suitable to be kept shut at home.. Maybe.. I'm not worth for anyone at all.. Maybe im born to be just for my family... But im blessed =) cos i got a 2nd chance to live =D
Maybe i'm nv a gd friend at all.. I only hurt my friends.. Leave me b4 u gonna regret... Cos i cant garantee im able to bring happiness to my friends.. Because.. im a bad friend.. i dun think anyone wanna stay long with me.. because my helpings will only end up as a hindrance to my friends..
This kind of reluctance... who really understands... I cried both in n out... Who will wanna be born to be unable to bring happiness to de ppl ard them, esp their friends... who understands mine feelings.. who understands wat it feels.. to be feel like a jinx... who understands how much i wanna cherish every friendship, tried to last every friendship but end up betrayed or misunderstood... who understands this kind of pain... I dun wan pity.. i dun wan apologies... i want friends who trust.. dun nid 24/7... but least just give basic trust. I give my trust despite countless of smiliar situation. Am i stupid to trust others fully over and over again? My dad say im.. But i just feel that my trust will bring others happiness, but why doesnt others appreciate? Instead make use of it? =
Words are powerful.. but y always most powerful at rumours or influence.. If really treat me as friend, give me basic trust.. If i noe u dun trust me as much, how i give u my trust even if i wanted? Believe my words n not doubt them n then end up half believe half dun believe... cos.. im in pain.. im really am... I can forgive, but i cant forget. Words are powerful that it hurts de soul.
I wonder is God giving me tons of tests to pass.. Nay~ i not in depression =.=" but i just really needa let out my so-called grief...wahahhahas xD hoping sm1 will understand my feelings. No matter what, life carries on, n i will acomplish wat i wan, there's too many things for me to learn.. i guess, i can only take a step at a time now. cos i no longer noe are my frens really still supporting me.. Let alone reading my blog, my tots... if u are, tag me, msg me, i will appreciate it. It may seems not significant to u, but least it is to me.. Cos i admit, im a lonely soul afterall. Hence, i need warmth.. =) Nites...
I will be positive and truly happy, not fake it, at my best =DDD[[ahvone]] = [[Friends are great,I love them like my kin]]
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Tomodachi my inspirations!
Tomodachi for eternal as it resides in the soul -
Genre - Japanese
Artist - BoA
Title - Winter Love
Hey all~!! =D I now it's really "early" Lols~ I noe u peeps will say im crazy if u noe de reason for me staying up till now is cos i was drawing instead of slping. kekes x) i noe it sounds like im mad but im over the moon for this madness xD Cos i FINALLY draw smth after 3wks! Was so afraid not to produce a single one. hehhehs, but since now i started holding my pencils again, i guess i will draw lots. Drawing is not just my hobby, it's a kind of passion, pleasure which i put my soul in them =) Seriously i dont mind to just stay hm to research on drawings / draw. Somehow i slowly regain my own style in drawing, but im definitely still learning, n i promise myself to accomplish my dream as an animator even the path ahead gonna be rocky n hard to carry on. I will hang on, pull thru n exile, cos i love wat i do =)
A lot had happened since the end of O levels / start of holidays. Pleasant as well as very unpleasant ones. More of the unpleasant ones thou =x But for once im glad all these unpleasant things are happened, as i came to discover, it's time for me to grow n learn much more. I may be a kid at heart, but the soul must learn to be an adult. Hehhehs.
I'm rather weak, falling sick for 2-3wks since holidays =.=" Really down with luck cos it really ruin alot of my plannings. But oh well, least i fall sick now n not during my Os. hahahas~ Must really learn to take gd care of my health >< wish me speedy recovery =P
Woohoo~! I realised this yr i didnt hv much friendship probs!! Grats to myself n thx to e might ones looking over me ^^ I guess it's my 1st yr not having major friendship probs =.=" All this while, things are really great, i've great tomodachi as memories. Althou recently there's dispute inside our grp of friends, somehow, i duno y i didnt overly vexed, as in i dont really broad over them. Not tt i dont care abt my friends or what had happened. Maybe somehow i learnt to really just let things be. For somehow... things will be straighten out as it goes. The more u try to salvage, the more complicated it gets. I do wanna help, but im learning, to just keep myself calm n handle things wisely when it gets ugly. For all i know, i'm learning, n tt's wat i wanna do for this lifetime. Learn, share n pass on my views, hoping i will hence, help souls somewhere, somehow =) Everyone is born for a reason ^^ So tt's y u, me, n everyone is here.
Last but not least, what i really wanna say to my bunch of gd friends : It's not easy for all of us to get tgt n b each others' memories. It's fate tt brought us tgt, n affinity tt breaks us up when time dues. I dun care when our affinity will end. I only care how we spend every single moment we hv tgt as FRIENDS. cos of wat i had gone thru over n over again, i strongly believe, there's nth called "Friends will nv quarrel". For we care tt's y there's dispute. For we share tt's y we are happy. For we love tt's y we quarrel to correct things. Because we truely love n care for the friendship tt's y we will quarrel n try to make things better / make everyone better. Because, we are friends... Even if neither believe what im trying to express here, this is what i gonna believe till my heart stops beating =) I love all my friends, because they are my inspirations!
TOMODACHI =D
[[ahvone]] = [[Fate Vs Affinity, i choose to stay by fate]]
Genre - Japanese
Artist - BoA
Title - Winter Love
Hey all~!! =D I now it's really "early" Lols~ I noe u peeps will say im crazy if u noe de reason for me staying up till now is cos i was drawing instead of slping. kekes x) i noe it sounds like im mad but im over the moon for this madness xD Cos i FINALLY draw smth after 3wks! Was so afraid not to produce a single one. hehhehs, but since now i started holding my pencils again, i guess i will draw lots. Drawing is not just my hobby, it's a kind of passion, pleasure which i put my soul in them =) Seriously i dont mind to just stay hm to research on drawings / draw. Somehow i slowly regain my own style in drawing, but im definitely still learning, n i promise myself to accomplish my dream as an animator even the path ahead gonna be rocky n hard to carry on. I will hang on, pull thru n exile, cos i love wat i do =)
A lot had happened since the end of O levels / start of holidays. Pleasant as well as very unpleasant ones. More of the unpleasant ones thou =x But for once im glad all these unpleasant things are happened, as i came to discover, it's time for me to grow n learn much more. I may be a kid at heart, but the soul must learn to be an adult. Hehhehs.
I'm rather weak, falling sick for 2-3wks since holidays =.=" Really down with luck cos it really ruin alot of my plannings. But oh well, least i fall sick now n not during my Os. hahahas~ Must really learn to take gd care of my health >< wish me speedy recovery =P
Woohoo~! I realised this yr i didnt hv much friendship probs!! Grats to myself n thx to e might ones looking over me ^^ I guess it's my 1st yr not having major friendship probs =.=" All this while, things are really great, i've great tomodachi as memories. Althou recently there's dispute inside our grp of friends, somehow, i duno y i didnt overly vexed, as in i dont really broad over them. Not tt i dont care abt my friends or what had happened. Maybe somehow i learnt to really just let things be. For somehow... things will be straighten out as it goes. The more u try to salvage, the more complicated it gets. I do wanna help, but im learning, to just keep myself calm n handle things wisely when it gets ugly. For all i know, i'm learning, n tt's wat i wanna do for this lifetime. Learn, share n pass on my views, hoping i will hence, help souls somewhere, somehow =) Everyone is born for a reason ^^ So tt's y u, me, n everyone is here.
Last but not least, what i really wanna say to my bunch of gd friends : It's not easy for all of us to get tgt n b each others' memories. It's fate tt brought us tgt, n affinity tt breaks us up when time dues. I dun care when our affinity will end. I only care how we spend every single moment we hv tgt as FRIENDS. cos of wat i had gone thru over n over again, i strongly believe, there's nth called "Friends will nv quarrel". For we care tt's y there's dispute. For we share tt's y we are happy. For we love tt's y we quarrel to correct things. Because we truely love n care for the friendship tt's y we will quarrel n try to make things better / make everyone better. Because, we are friends... Even if neither believe what im trying to express here, this is what i gonna believe till my heart stops beating =) I love all my friends, because they are my inspirations!
TOMODACHI =D[[ahvone]] = [[Fate Vs Affinity, i choose to stay by fate]]
Saturday, November 25, 2006
想通啦~!!!!
In every meeting there's gonna be a parting -
Genre - Dance
Artist - Samantha Jade
Title - Step up
HELLO~!!! I'm back! Alive and kicking and smiling of cos ^^ Honestly from the bottom of the heart i already feel much better, so you people out there, can stop worrying for me already =D Somehow i sort things out already, will further talk about it later =) First thing first, i wanna thank you people for supporting me when i feel like i was drowning xD but luckily got floats lahs >< hahahahs~!! And also, I will only be shifting my blog at the end of this year. Signifies the round up for my 16years of life together with secondary sch life, and then im gonna start anew to pursue my dreams whole-heartedly le ^^
Secondly, one of my good friend's mother passed away, my condolence. I know she will be strong and fine. Knowing this it makes me understand more on... what is called "LIFE IS SHORT! LIVE IT!" i truly understand it now. Our life may just end anytime, why not just pursue what you truly wants, no matter it gonna be failure of success. You never know until you TRY! but of cos in a positive way hor! ^^ hehes. Likewise, for BGR hur.. dun keep quiet. Nothing will work if you dont SPEAK! Words are like magic, trust me =) Does bgr shucks? To me definitely NOPE, but must always have de heart to prepare anyth not so good lah. hahahs. you get me de right xD hahahas. But overall, we are only human, shower your love, love it, love to the fullest with all your heart bahs ^^ remember my new quote "YOU NEVER KNOW!" wahahhahahas! All the best to the people out there, success or failure, live it! to the fullest =D
Lastly, i've sort out my feelings le nahs~ hahahahs. I must thx the show of "天外飞仙" scriptwriter! hahahahs. The words that were said made me think thru and understand wat ZHU told me at the first and second day when we broke up =) To love doesnt means to be literally there. And to love is not an action, it's really all about the heart, you need not proof it, you just noe it =) I know i have to accept that we are already broken up le, and that maybe lidat also not bad, least we gonna love each other forever ^^ Uh huh~ i gonna believe ur every single word that you had said before. I know our hearts are still connected, just like what you told me before, always will be connected ^^ I only know althou we cant be literally be lovers anymore, least the feelings are genuine and forever and also FRIENDS FOREVER =DD *ai shiteru~*YAY~!! 我想通啦~!! =D
[[ahvone]] = [[我会开开心心过每一天~!! ^^]]
Genre - Dance
Artist - Samantha Jade
Title - Step up
HELLO~!!! I'm back! Alive and kicking and smiling of cos ^^ Honestly from the bottom of the heart i already feel much better, so you people out there, can stop worrying for me already =D Somehow i sort things out already, will further talk about it later =) First thing first, i wanna thank you people for supporting me when i feel like i was drowning xD but luckily got floats lahs >< hahahahs~!! And also, I will only be shifting my blog at the end of this year. Signifies the round up for my 16years of life together with secondary sch life, and then im gonna start anew to pursue my dreams whole-heartedly le ^^
Secondly, one of my good friend's mother passed away, my condolence. I know she will be strong and fine. Knowing this it makes me understand more on... what is called "LIFE IS SHORT! LIVE IT!" i truly understand it now. Our life may just end anytime, why not just pursue what you truly wants, no matter it gonna be failure of success. You never know until you TRY! but of cos in a positive way hor! ^^ hehes. Likewise, for BGR hur.. dun keep quiet. Nothing will work if you dont SPEAK! Words are like magic, trust me =) Does bgr shucks? To me definitely NOPE, but must always have de heart to prepare anyth not so good lah. hahahs. you get me de right xD hahahas. But overall, we are only human, shower your love, love it, love to the fullest with all your heart bahs ^^ remember my new quote "YOU NEVER KNOW!" wahahhahahas! All the best to the people out there, success or failure, live it! to the fullest =D
Lastly, i've sort out my feelings le nahs~ hahahahs. I must thx the show of "天外飞仙" scriptwriter! hahahahs. The words that were said made me think thru and understand wat ZHU told me at the first and second day when we broke up =) To love doesnt means to be literally there. And to love is not an action, it's really all about the heart, you need not proof it, you just noe it =) I know i have to accept that we are already broken up le, and that maybe lidat also not bad, least we gonna love each other forever ^^ Uh huh~ i gonna believe ur every single word that you had said before. I know our hearts are still connected, just like what you told me before, always will be connected ^^ I only know althou we cant be literally be lovers anymore, least the feelings are genuine and forever and also FRIENDS FOREVER =DD *ai shiteru~*YAY~!! 我想通啦~!! =D
[[ahvone]] = [[我会开开心心过每一天~!! ^^]]
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Our love, so genuine yet short lived, but no regrets =]
My Story With My Once Perfect Man For 170 Perfect Days -
The day we found each other was the day you taught me how to love. I didn't expect you to be the one who was gonna bring live into my life. Never did i expect.. you to be the one who will make me vulnerable but yet stronger as days passed. We started off as being close friends, we were confidants.. Never did we expect to be in loved. It was wrong right from the start, we both knew it, but yet we still carried on. Days were great, we played the game of "when did i know you" on 13/08.. that was the "2nd" day i've gotta know you, that was also.. the start of us. I counted days as they passed. So well so perfect so magical. I thought there will be a 100 day.. 200.. 300.. and more uncountable days for me to go on.. Yet it stopped on the "98th day" also, the 170th day since we found one another.
None of us wanted this to happen, i dont blame you or anyone or the holy ones. I believe in fate and destiny. It was fate that brought us together. Yet destiny wants us to end here. I know that people who know what had happened between us, found it foolish to break up for such reason, but i've never really felt the same. I dont wanna you to have the guilt in you, carrying the name as a sinner. Even if u are willing to be one, i wont allow you to do so. Precisely because i loved you so much, i didnt wanna you to be in any ways unhappy. Every individuals has his own belief, you have yours, i've mine. I respect yours and accept it. Initally i was very unstable, i find that having your love alone was not enough. I wanna more, i wanna be with you. But now that it has passed for nearly two days, i came to understand. It is enough to have your love. The love that i've never gotten in any relationships for 16years.
We cried, we wanted to get back, we wanted to just forget everything and be together. But it was impossible, we are obstinate, we know that even we are to get back, it will be different, cos neither of us will be as happy as before, for what we will see is each others' guilt and sadness. I believe, if we are really meant to be, we will eventually be together even after many years. And i too believe that even if we didnt break up now, we might still eventually ended up separate, because our affinity comes to an end. I came to realise, maybe this way of breaking up was better than how normal couples quarrelled and break up. Because least we know our love is genuine and that we will wanna to be each other confidants, the best one, for this lifetime. And what's left are all perfect memories.
I saw those eyes of yours, the sadness filled in your eyes, just like mine. I heard the cryings in your heart, just like mine, breaking into shattered pieces. I know we are both in the same agony, and i came to realise it was even cruel for you to break on that night when it was supposed to be a happy occasion. This date of every year will just bring you even greater hurt. Was that how you wanted to punish yourself for breaking my heart? Or was that ur fillial piety? I don't know and I won't prob.. I only know.. I've never seen you this heart-broken since the day i have known you.
The days we had was short lived yet the sweetest in our 16 years of life. We know that we will never be abled to forget one another and our love, unless memories failed us. *Haha, what a funny thing, I'm having Deja vu even writing this... I guess somehow things are destinated =)* I came to know what i really want from you, just 6simple things. I wanna you to be safe and sound, happy and blessed, peaceful and be loved by someone who's able to bring out what i wish i could bring to you. I can't be the one who's gonna bring you all these, but if im able to see you in such a way, i will be just as happy as being with you. I know we will both be hurt if we see each other having different partners.. I know it is cruel, but i want you to remember, your happiness is my happiness, and my happiness is also yours.
That was our first, you were shocked, and i did it by gathering all my courage.. I did it because i know I will regret if i didnt make our wish comes true. It was not the most perfect, but it was perfectly just right as a reminder to the both of us that we were once so happy together. I don't know will we be able to find someone able to give us this same feeling, but I know it will be hard for me to find someone who is so willing to accept me whole-heartedly. You were my once perfect man that i wish to have forever, but i know the time is up, i've to let go, i will and i must, in order to see you be once... that happy again.
I didnt really have gotten the chance to be your Miss perfect, and you didnt really have gotten the chance to be my Mr right. Although I'm no longer literally yours, in my heart.. i still see myself as part of yours.. Half of my heart has been given to you.. It hurts, but as long you have the 6 things i wished you will get, the hurts will eventually vanish and that i will have One and a half heart. A fully happy heart, and a half heart that's sharing your joys. Though i cant be literally yours anymore, i want you to know, i will still wanna be your best girl.friend, your best confidant, and i know, you too likewise will think like how i've thought.
It's an end, but a start to a strong friendship, im contented and glad that least i came to discover this friendship and once a relationship =) Just before we really gonna be just friends, make our last night as though we are really still one another's... After that, I guess our brand new life will really start. I don't know when im gonna start bgr again. Maybe never.. until.. i've accomplished my dreams.. And i give you my blessings on finding a much better girl than me, have a perfect relationship and have the 6things. And i still strongly believed, we can always still love even without being together ^^ I loved you, my Mr Once Perfect Man.
[[ahvone]] *** [[Simple is best, Monokoro Booboo.. ai shiteru]]
The day we found each other was the day you taught me how to love. I didn't expect you to be the one who was gonna bring live into my life. Never did i expect.. you to be the one who will make me vulnerable but yet stronger as days passed. We started off as being close friends, we were confidants.. Never did we expect to be in loved. It was wrong right from the start, we both knew it, but yet we still carried on. Days were great, we played the game of "when did i know you" on 13/08.. that was the "2nd" day i've gotta know you, that was also.. the start of us. I counted days as they passed. So well so perfect so magical. I thought there will be a 100 day.. 200.. 300.. and more uncountable days for me to go on.. Yet it stopped on the "98th day" also, the 170th day since we found one another.
None of us wanted this to happen, i dont blame you or anyone or the holy ones. I believe in fate and destiny. It was fate that brought us together. Yet destiny wants us to end here. I know that people who know what had happened between us, found it foolish to break up for such reason, but i've never really felt the same. I dont wanna you to have the guilt in you, carrying the name as a sinner. Even if u are willing to be one, i wont allow you to do so. Precisely because i loved you so much, i didnt wanna you to be in any ways unhappy. Every individuals has his own belief, you have yours, i've mine. I respect yours and accept it. Initally i was very unstable, i find that having your love alone was not enough. I wanna more, i wanna be with you. But now that it has passed for nearly two days, i came to understand. It is enough to have your love. The love that i've never gotten in any relationships for 16years.
We cried, we wanted to get back, we wanted to just forget everything and be together. But it was impossible, we are obstinate, we know that even we are to get back, it will be different, cos neither of us will be as happy as before, for what we will see is each others' guilt and sadness. I believe, if we are really meant to be, we will eventually be together even after many years. And i too believe that even if we didnt break up now, we might still eventually ended up separate, because our affinity comes to an end. I came to realise, maybe this way of breaking up was better than how normal couples quarrelled and break up. Because least we know our love is genuine and that we will wanna to be each other confidants, the best one, for this lifetime. And what's left are all perfect memories.
I saw those eyes of yours, the sadness filled in your eyes, just like mine. I heard the cryings in your heart, just like mine, breaking into shattered pieces. I know we are both in the same agony, and i came to realise it was even cruel for you to break on that night when it was supposed to be a happy occasion. This date of every year will just bring you even greater hurt. Was that how you wanted to punish yourself for breaking my heart? Or was that ur fillial piety? I don't know and I won't prob.. I only know.. I've never seen you this heart-broken since the day i have known you.
The days we had was short lived yet the sweetest in our 16 years of life. We know that we will never be abled to forget one another and our love, unless memories failed us. *Haha, what a funny thing, I'm having Deja vu even writing this... I guess somehow things are destinated =)* I came to know what i really want from you, just 6simple things. I wanna you to be safe and sound, happy and blessed, peaceful and be loved by someone who's able to bring out what i wish i could bring to you. I can't be the one who's gonna bring you all these, but if im able to see you in such a way, i will be just as happy as being with you. I know we will both be hurt if we see each other having different partners.. I know it is cruel, but i want you to remember, your happiness is my happiness, and my happiness is also yours.
That was our first, you were shocked, and i did it by gathering all my courage.. I did it because i know I will regret if i didnt make our wish comes true. It was not the most perfect, but it was perfectly just right as a reminder to the both of us that we were once so happy together. I don't know will we be able to find someone able to give us this same feeling, but I know it will be hard for me to find someone who is so willing to accept me whole-heartedly. You were my once perfect man that i wish to have forever, but i know the time is up, i've to let go, i will and i must, in order to see you be once... that happy again.
I didnt really have gotten the chance to be your Miss perfect, and you didnt really have gotten the chance to be my Mr right. Although I'm no longer literally yours, in my heart.. i still see myself as part of yours.. Half of my heart has been given to you.. It hurts, but as long you have the 6 things i wished you will get, the hurts will eventually vanish and that i will have One and a half heart. A fully happy heart, and a half heart that's sharing your joys. Though i cant be literally yours anymore, i want you to know, i will still wanna be your best girl.friend, your best confidant, and i know, you too likewise will think like how i've thought.
It's an end, but a start to a strong friendship, im contented and glad that least i came to discover this friendship and once a relationship =) Just before we really gonna be just friends, make our last night as though we are really still one another's... After that, I guess our brand new life will really start. I don't know when im gonna start bgr again. Maybe never.. until.. i've accomplished my dreams.. And i give you my blessings on finding a much better girl than me, have a perfect relationship and have the 6things. And i still strongly believed, we can always still love even without being together ^^ I loved you, my Mr Once Perfect Man.
[[ahvone]] *** [[Simple is best, Monokoro Booboo.. ai shiteru]]
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